Your Love Defends Me

I will sing about your strength.
In the morning I will sing about your love.
You are my defender, my place of safety in times of trouble.

God, my strength, I will sing praises to you.
God, my defender, you are the God who loves me.

Psalm 59:16-17 NCV

Have you ever heard the lyrics of a song and thought how well they described your life?

I heard a new song this week by Matt Maher called “Your Love Defends me.” This song wrecked me! I apologize for all the personal stories, but I’d like to give you a glimpse into some of the ways God’s love has defended me. Sometimes it is overwhelming to look back and see all He has done over my lifetime.

One of the verses of Matt’s song says:

Day after day, night after night
I will remember, You’re with me in this fight
Although the battle, it rages on
The war is already won
I know the war is already won

I realize Matt is probably referring to the spiritual battles we face in this life, but it reminded me of a flesh-and-blood battle that raged on for more than 3 years as I fought like a fierce mother lion in court for the safety and well-being of my son. After living in an abusive marriage for 20 years, I decided to end the cycle of abuse to protect myself and my 10-year-old son. In the process of a legal deposition, two young men from two different churches came forward and testified to being sexually abused by my husband when he was their youth leader. This new information made the fight for custody even more critical.

I could write chapters on what happened during that time in court, but the most important thing was how God fought for me and alongside me. Every day as I sat down in the courtroom (for 2 1/2 years with an attorney and the last six months serving as my own attorney), I pulled out an index card with these words:

“The Lord shall fight for you, and you will hold your peace.” Exodus 14:14

Glancing down at those words during the court proceedings gave me courage and strength when a multitude of heinous lies and deception were being perpetrated by the opposing party. Part of the battle was about exposing the lies, but the main battle for me was protecting the life of my son.

During the course of the trial, one of my witnesses and two or three attorneys were threatened and our safety was in jeopardy. At one point, we (my son and I) were advised by counsel to leave town for a while for our own safety. I depended on God to defend me and protect us. He did, in so many ways, so many times. He fought for me, and the victory was His.

Matt Maher writes, “In the Bible, the devil is referred to as the great accuser. I think that’s very fitting because someone like him is going to stand up and constantly try to hold the things that you’ve said or done, that reveal any inconsistency, against you to prevent you from moving forward. However God is your defender.”

In another difficult situation 10 years ago, I found myself accused by ministry partners of things that were not true. Once again, in the presence of professional mediators, I had to call on God to defend me, and afterward to provide for me when it was time to move on. He did, in so many ways, so many times. His love defended me.

Matt writes, “I’ve realized that the love of God is not my last resort. It’s not my last line of defense. It’s the first one. Maybe the Christian life is more and more about relying on the defense of the love of God. It is God who stands by your side. It is God who declares who you are and who you aren’t. It is God who speaks over your past and heals it and fixes your eyes on Him in the present and towards the future. My prayer for you . . . Is that you would let His love defend you.”

Two lines in Matt’s song say:

And when I feel like I’m all alone
Your love defends me, Your love defends me.

Whether you live alone or with a spouse and/or family, there are probably times when you feel alone, when you don’t feel understood, or when you’re emotionally worn out and discouraged. It’s an amazing thing to know God is there with you, defending you with his love.

Who does he defend you from in your loneliness? Usually it is from yourself and the thoughts that sneak into your mind that say you are unlovable, incapable, undeserving, not enough, too much . . . and on and on ad nauseam. His love defends you from all the lies you’ve believed about yourself. When he defends you, you’re the judge and jury who decides whether you’ll believe him or not. I’ve found his words to be the most beautiful, life-giving, healing words of truth and love ever spoken.

I hope you will let his love defend you, and I hope you’ll believe it with your whole heart.

AS YOU PRAY:

* Say “I love you, Lord.”
* Thank God for all the ways and all the times he has shown you his love.
* Whatever battle you find yourself in today, ask God to go before you and defend you with his love.

Copyright (c) 2017 Brenda Branson

2 thoughts on “Your Love Defends Me

  1. Tears are pouring from My Eyes as I write this. Let me first introduce Mysself. My name is Cynthia and I Am A Daughter of The Most High GOD!! In reading your story I geared your strength in making sure your son was safe! And how you made a decision to get out of an abusive relationship! In All that I heard THE LOVE OF JESUS in You!! I-can relate to the abuse! I was abused by my Mom and later my children’s father for 23 years of My young life! I’m well past all that now BY THE GRACE OF GOD!! I’ve since,left that State, moved to Florida, met and Married My Soul mate. Who is A Pastor, And I Am his first lady! 🙂

    What I’d like to ask You is to Pray for Myself and My husband who have been having some hard times! We’ve been homeless of and on since 2012! I’m not able to work like I use too and My husband is the only one working! My diabetes, degenerative bone disease, Neuropathy, makes it hard for me to sit, stand, or sometimes even walk!! My husband is A veteran who has become so depressed that he’s on medication now! He feels like it’s his fault that we’re in this viscous cycle! It’s not! It’s our disobedience to GOD’S WILL for Our Lives!! I could go on and on but I’d like to get to the point!-The point is we’ve been living in a room for the past 5 months! It’s not the best place but we’ve been thankful for it! My husband hurt himself on his job and of course Workmens Comp does not want to pay him!! He’s been using his PTO to pay the bills and this weekend is The last check and it will not be enough to cover the next two weeks rent! Our jeep has been repo’d so now we don’t even have that to sleep in. I don’t know why I’m pouring all this out to you, but I Must tell You that I’m ONLY ASKING FOR PRAYER!! Nothing else!! I know that THE LORD will defend us! I know that HE’S As Near As My VERY NEXT BREATH!! I guess I Just needed a fresh set of ears, And A Pure heart for GOD TO PRAY for US!! I PRAY, Morning, Noon, And at Midnight every night!! My husband has loss the desire to PRAY!! BUT I HAVE NOT!! I TRUST THE LORD WILL MAKE A WAY!! I was Led to this site through another site that ministered to My Heart, soul, And Spirit!! I know NOTHING HAPPENS BY Mistake!! And So,here I Am asking for PRAYER!!

    I thank You In Advance My Sister,

    Your WARRIOR SISTER IN CHRIST,

    Cynthia <3 <3 <3

    1. Cynthia, I’m so sorry for all you and your husband are going through. I wish we had funds to help you, but we do not. However, we will be praying for you and your family. I hope you have a church family who will help you find housing, etc. Another suggestion would be Salvation Army. Depending on your location, they may be able to help you.

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